Deep Reflection by Ming Wei on his visit to Go Vap Orphanage

Reflection on visit to Go Vap Orphanage

After I walked out from the orphanage, I felt really sad. I felt very pity for them, a child in this age shall never suffer this. But this is life right? At first, I don't dare to look at them as the poor kids want us to go in and make some contacts with them. But I am afraid to play with them. When I moved to second floor, I started to wonder how will their life be in 20 years. Are there still people to look after them? If the wars had never happened, how great will that be. No one really wins in a war, wars only bring us the victim of normal people. Then I get to know that many of them were abandoned in front of the orphanage. I think I maybe understand why because maybe burden for some families. Both parents are just normal workers, they can't afford a child like this. They don't have a means, time and money to spend on a child of such condition. I appreciate what I have now. They don't even have a basic healthy condition.
Then we went to the next place. I saw children who was in my age blocking my way. We were all scared. We don't dare to get near him. None of us has given a lucky bracelet. However, when I moved downstairs, I looked upwards. I saw his eyes! A pair of eyes filled with desired, he just want to play with us. Yes, he just want to play with us but in a different way. I felt guilty about it. After that, we moved to the first floor again where we played with the children. I saw Sherlyn playing with the lovely children. I said to myself  "They are just normal kids, but with a bit of flaws" I should treat them like I usually do with other children.
Thus, I suddenly felt there are no more emotional blocks between me and the children. I stayed in the room and I felt the room is filled with love. It is just that simple. The boy with me always like me to hug him and take pictures. I start being upset, the children are just so simple, they don't want much things. All they need is just a toy and a hug. They are just so simple and naive. So why don't we love them more? This also brings me back to the guy who blocked our way. He just need us to talk and play with him for a while. But, for that simple desire, I was not able to satisfy him. If I had another opportunity. I will ...

Xu Ming Wei